I Will Always Have Room in My Heart to Love You

I thought I had no love left in my heart to grieve for those who do not love me in return. I had committed to reserving my grief for those who did so. Yet, you proved me wrong in my understanding because you stopped loving me, but I chose to grieve your departure with love, not hate. I misunderstood what love was and subsequently grief as well.

I understand now that my grief is the endurance my love has for you, not yours for me. And while I could choose to view you as a monster because of how you acted towards me, I refuse.

Instead, I thank you for teaching me up until the very end, not only this lesson regarding my ability to love without reciprocation, but for providing me with a map that I will use again as my own parents age. If it wasn’t for you, I would be less complete and less prepared for future life experiences.

Thank you for loving me when you did, and for showing me the beauty you were capable of, because it has taught me that I am capable of loving without anything to look for in return. I wish you peace, and I hope that includes finding and spending eternity with Grandpa.

I have missed you and will continue to miss you. I will always have room in my heart to love you, Goodbye Grandma.