Category: Journal Entries
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Depression Zone
Depression, for me, feels like being in a different time zone from the rest of the world. It’s like everyone else is moving forward, their lives flowing effortlessly, while I’m stuck, unable to join in the rhythm of life. I find myself seeking safety, wrapping myself in a blanket not at all for warmth but…
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Internal Judgment
I’m rushing around getting/making some last min Christmas gifts today! dah! But I also made some time for some writing and reflecting. This little poem is about how we so often judge and short change ourselves and never give ourselves the benefit of the doubt. Let me know what you think of it. “In the…
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The Empath’s Plight
As someone who considers themselves deeply empathetic or an empath, I’ve noticed a challenge that often goes unspoken. We have this natural inclination to deeply tune into others’ emotions and disappointments, sometimes to the point of over-interpretation. It’s almost like we’re wired to feel what others feel, but this can lead to a psychological phenomenon…
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Being Congruent with Our Feelings, Thoughts, Words, and Actions.
I’m finding more and more that great things happen when our feelings, thoughts, words, and actions are congruent. When these aspects of ourselves align, happiness is found. 💙 When my internal dialogue is in turmoil I often find that one of these: my feelings, my thoughts, my words, or my actions has deviated from the…
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I’m Thankful for…
Yesterday, I joined a group of ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses for a Thanksgiving dinner. This dinner group included two attorneys, two former Bethelites, and three ex-elders. The conversation was nothing short of extraordinary. En route, I considered how the dinner might unfold. I had mentally committed to a two-hour stay, sufficient to be courteous, enjoy a meal,…
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The Blue Screen of Death
The blue screen of death, the universal sign of a system failure, strikes a particular chord with me. It takes me back to my own internal system crashes, those of belief, expectations, and self-identity. There were times when I felt like a computer crashing, overwhelmed by demands and tasks that I simply couldn’t process or…
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Monday Motivation: Processing the Past to Empower the Future
Well dang! This is a late post! I’m considering adding a “Monday Motivation” post each week, a way to start each week with a reflective yet forward-looking perspective. It’s an opportunity to identify the lessons of the past and focus them into actions for the present and future, which is what I want to discuss…
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Journal Entries of the Past : Plans to be Happy
I started looking though old journals as I started writing my posts centering them around my time at Bethel. I found this journal entry from February 2008 that was written while I was there. “Get close to the congregation. Have a set plan for service during the month. Be prepared for ministry, arrange to work…
